If you haven’t read through the Interlude between Chapter 5 and Chapter 6, you won’t want to read this post. Stop now. Don’t read further. Pick up your book and read then come back.
guilt |gilt| noun
• a feeling of having done wrong or failed in an obligation: he remembered with sudden guilt the letter from his mother that he had not yet read.
guilt |gilt| verb [ with obj. ] informal
• make (someone) feel guilty, esp. in order to induce them to do something: Celeste had been guilted into going by her parents.
The great Apostle Paul wrote these words, “What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise.” Romans 7:15 (MSG). Haven’t we all felt that way at one time or another…or maybe right now. We just don’t seem to do what we know we should. We can’t trust ourselves. In this way, we are all werewolves like Luther, right? There is one side of us that wants to do right and another side that fights to do things we don’t want to do. This leads to all kinds of guilt.
Why do you think people experience guilt? Is it “cultural programming”? Some people might argue that guilt can be a positive thing, but more often than not, it appears that guilt paralyzes people and doesn’t allow them to grow and mature. If we all make mistakes, and we all struggle with this “do what I don’t want to do” then why would we ever place guilt on someone else? Coping with this guilt is sometimes what paralyzes us, though. Maybe be deny it. Maybe we try to drink it away. Maybe we try to “look like a Christian” until we don’t feel it anymore. What are other coping mechanisms? Luther says, “That I could be something more than this, if only i could find the right path, if only I could find the right fuel for that flickering flame to make it more than a whispered candle’s breath.” We all are looking for that one thing that will ease our guilt, transform our lives.
He goes on to say, “It is the nature of the werewolf to be both man and wolf, and for many years I was satisfied – no, pleased – to be both man and wolf.” Remember a time in your life when you actually liked doing the wrong and the right? Is that even possible? How can you like being both the wolf and the man?
Read on my friends…I’ll post at the next interlude on another day.